November 12, 2009

Well, its just about 3AM, so I thought I would write a quick journal entry and then hit the hay. Work today was marginally better. Calls were easy and then Scott showed up today. Even if he doesn't know who I am, I still enjoy looking at him. He has the bluest eyes I have ever seen. And the most perfect smile. I can't get over it! I just wish I had the nerve to at least say hello to him. He glanced my way a couple times during the day and I had planned to smile at him. Instead, I am sure i looked nauseated and just looked down at my desk. I need to man up!

Anyways, I am a little worried about work because I am behind in my training and can't seem to get it down. I am worried that if I start taking calls for the new service provider I will screw it up and get lots of cancelled tickets. I guess I will just have to take some time out of my weekend to really concentrate on watching the training videos.

After work, a weird thing happened. I came out of the office to the back parking lot and it seemed darker than usual. I guess one of the lights had gone out or something. I started walking to my car and I hear this sound. I turn around and some weird guy was suddenly leaning against the wall right near the door I had come out of. He was very tall but I couldn't make out much more than that. He just stood there and kept his eyes trained on me. I certainly walked faster than ever to my car.

But thats not the weirdest part! I came home and was getting out of my car and I could swear the EXACT same man was sitting under a tree in the playground area. I guess that is silly though. Theres absolutely no way it could be the same guy. But even still, it was creepy. I've probably just been watching too many scary movies again.

Jessie arrives tomorrow mid-morning. I am excited about him coming into town. I am very ready for him to move here! We have been friends for years now and I love being around him. Sometimes I feel like there might be more there, but...oh, I don't know. It's confusing. Maybe its better if I just don't think of my friends that way. But theres just something about the way he smiles at me.

Anyways, he is going to force me out of this coccoon I call an apartment for a night out on the town on Saturday. Part of me is excited because I haven't been downtown to the bars in months. But part of me is scared because...well, because I haven't been downtown to the bars in MONTHS! I am sure he will make sure I have a good time. He always does.

Well, he gets here pretty early so I should head for bed. Still have to clean the apartment before he gets here. Here's hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.

-Mike